A butterfly came to me today and landed upon my knee His wings were heavy from the rain I knew you had sent him to me
Only an Angel such as yourself would care about these things so I dried him with my breath and sat him on some leaves
As I sat there watching him soaking in the Sun I thought how great it must be to fly it looks like so much fun
My Angel now you have your wings Don't let my tears weigh them down I know someday I will see you again Until then keep sending the butterflies around.
All this time / Tracy Shilt (Sister) I can't believe after all this time I can't get over you.I guess a bond like ours is truly one of a kind.It's been 3 long years since you left me,Do you still remeber me?It's like a bad dream that plays over and over in my head,Of things I wished I'd done or words I would have said.There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you,Even after all this time,What am I going to do.Maybe this is the way that siblings are supposed to feel,Perhaps are wounds are never intended to heal.If I could ask, but one question why...How is it god,could need you more than I??
Roses for my Brother / Tracy Shilt (Sister & Soulmate ) For My Brother Tony... If roses grow in heaven, Lord pick a bunch for me. Place them in Tony's arms, and tell him they're from me. Tell him I love and miss him, and when he turns and smiles. Place a kiss upon his cheek, and hold him for a while. Remembering him is easy, I do it everyday. But there is an ache, Within my heart. THAT WILL NEVER GO AWAY!! ...From Your Sister Tracy
I WANT TO TELL YOUR SISTER THANKS / HEATHER DREWEL (STRANGER) FIRST OF ALL I WANT TO TELL YOU HOW SORRY I AM FOR YOUR LOSS, AND THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR READING MY STORY AND WRITING ON IT, IT MADE MY DAY. THIS MEMORIAL SITE IS AWESOME I LOVE IT. YOUR STORY IS VERY SAD AND VERY DEVASTATING. AND I HOPE WHOEVER THAT SOB WAS THAT TOOK YOUR BROTHER'S LIFE IS NOW SERVERING TIME. YOUR SITE IS BEAUTIFUL AND VERY HEART TOUCHING. IT IS GREAT TO MEET NEW PEOPLE THROUGH THIS WEBSITE IT HELPS ALOT! IT HELPS ME GET THROUGH MY BAD DAYS WHICH IS ALMOST EVERYDAY. YOU ARE RIGHT IT IS SO HARD EVERYDAY. I ALSO KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT IT'S GONNA GET BETTER WITH TIME BUT IT HASN'T AND I REALLY DON'T EVER THINK IT WILL. BUT WE KNOW THAT WE HAVE ANGELS WATCHING OVER US EVERYDAY, AND THAT EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE NOT HERE ON EARTH WITH US, THEY ARE STILL FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS AND NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FROM US. WELL JUST REMEMBER IF YOU EVER NEED ANYONE TO TALK TO AND YOU HAVE A YAHOO ID I WILL ADD YOU AND WE CAN TALK. MY SCREEN NAME IS heather_drewel@yahoo.com K YOU AND YOUR FAMILY WILL FOREVER BE IN MY THOUGHTS AND HEART! GOD BLESS
Bestfriends/ Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Sister & Bestfriend ) To My Beloved Brother Tony... We have had some good times, and we have had some tough. But you have always been there, even when times got rough. Some friends come and go, and some always remain. No matter if we change, or if we stay the same. A BESTFRIEND will always be there no matter what the case. And you have always done that, no matter what I've faced. Please always know that, whatever comes your way. I will always be your BESTFRIEND...Until my dying day!! ...Your Sister,Tracy
Together Forever / Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Sister) Tony...A part of you has grown in me, And so you see it's you and me. Together forever and never apart maybe in distance...But never in heart!!...Tracy
Your Gentle Face / Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Sister) Tony... Your gentle face and patient smile, With sadness we recall. You had a kindly word for each, And died beloved by all. The voice is mute and stilled the heart. That loved us well and true, Ah, bitter was the the trial to part. From one so good as you. You are not forgotten loved one, Nor will you ever be. As long as life and memory last, We will remember thee. We miss you now, are hearts are sore. As time goes by we miss you more. Your loving smile, Your gentle face... NO ONE CAN FILL YOUR EMPTY PLACE!!!! Forever loved and missed!!! ...Tracy
I Carry Your Heart With Me / Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Sister) I dedicate this poem from ee cummings to My Brother and Bestfriend, Tony..I carry your heart with me(I carry it in my heart) I'am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)I fear. No fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)I want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)and its you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you. Here is the deepest secret nobody knows,(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than a soul can hope or a mind can hide)and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart... i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) ...Tracy
One of the Best / Tracy Gordon (Sister) Tony... You left us so quietly, Your thoughts unknown.You left us memories, We are proud to own. So treasure him, Lord, In your garden of rest. For on Earth he was...One Of The Best!,Tracy
They Say / Tracy Gordon (Sister) They say,"What's wrong with you? Why do you cry, Why do you miss time from work? Why do you act this way? Get on with your life; It happens all the time. I know how you feel" they say. "Oh, yes, I lost my Brother too, or my Uncle Fred or my Great Aunt Esther, " they say! You'll get over it; the pain will go away. You'll do fine, they say! But I'm locked in a prison, of my own making, Here in my mind--with no walls, and no windows. Just pain everyday; But I'll be fine, that's what they say! I lost My Bestfriend, My Brother; My life is forever changed. I'm sick and tired of what they say!! Now half of them shun me, like a plague or malady. Behind my back, is where they say...I don't know why she carries on so much, It's been three years they say!! She used to be such a happy, fun gal. Now she's such a pain, they say. So I pray to my Brother, and to God for his help. Help me live on and learn from each day. I pray also for THOSE WHO KNOW NAUGHT, WHAT PAIN THEY CAUSE... WHEN THEY SAY!!!
Memories of Your Face / Tracy Gordon Shilt (Sister) Tony... I woke this morning, Finding everything in a haze. Wiping tears from my eyes, I saw your smiling face. I reached out and touched you, Yet all I could feel was pain. You felt nothing, From your life within a frame. I spoke--receiving no reply. I told you that I Loved You, and I asked you, Why? I'll never have another, No one to take your place. All I have, Little Brother, are memories...AND THE PICTURE OF YOUR FACE. ...Tracy
Somebody Shot A Bullet / Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Bestfriend & Sister ) Somebody shot a bullet, and my brother Tony died. Somebody shot a bullet, and forever our family will cry. Somebody shot a bullet, and my baby brother's not here anymore. Somebody pulled a trigger, and we'll never know why. Somebody pulled a trigger, and my baby brother had to die. Somebody pulled a trigger, and I won't forget the bang...Somebody changed my world that night, and I'm still asking why. Somebody changed my world that night, When my brother Tony had to die. Somebody changed my world, and if I could, I know what I'd do... But I don't want to be like them-So God, I'll leave it up to you!!! ....Tracy
What I would give? / Tracy Shilt (Sister & Soulmate ) {Tony & Me -1990} ...What I would give if I could say,"Hello to my brother Tony" everyday? To hear his voice, To see him smile. To sit with him, and laugh and joke awhile. So if you have a "Tony" cherish him with love and care, 'Cause you'll never know the heartache to know, When your brother isn't there!
Losing You Is Losing Me / Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Sister) To lose a sibling is to lose oneself, For a part of me is gone...And now i'm left to reminise, As i try to carry on.The thought of you not being here has torn my world apart. Yet everyday i feel you near, A blessing to my heart. Your memory comforts me today, In ways i wish you knew. But tears are falling from the pain, That comes from losing you. I see your face in the morning sun, and in the moon at night. I wonder how your feeling now, I PRAY THAT YOUR ALRIGHT. And one day when my time has come, To soar with eagles wings. We'll be joined for ever more, To laugh,To live,To sing!!! Love and Miss You,Tony....Your Bestfriend & Sister,Tracy
Happy 30th Birthday Brother / Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Besstfriend & Sister ) Happy 30th Birthday Tony, It's sure to be the best one yet.Though you left me here behind,Did you think that I'd forget?Your cake this year will surely be, a beauty to be hold.With the icing made of silver,and the candles made of gold.Your birthdays in heaven now,will be such grand affairs.I know you'll look so handsome,with a halo in your hair.The angels will come from every where to sing your Birthday Song,and I know they will be so happy if your family sings along.No,I can't send you a card this year,or give a gift so fine.So I will just send this special poem of ryme,to that Wonderful Bestfriend & Brother of Mine!!!!! Happy Birthday Tony!!!!
One Last Time / Tracy Shilt-Gordon (Bestfriend & Sister ) Tony...I looked upon you one last time, A face I knew better then mine.I stroked your hair and kissed your face,You feel so cold and out of place. I try to leave but I'am stuck to the floor, As reality hits me with a blinding roar.I try to listen to the voice of reason in my head, My heart screams don't leave him in this place of the dead!! I know you are gone and can't come back, Without you life is wrong,the furture black.The anguish of this runs so deep,I feel it even in my sleep. My heart cannot fathom that you are gone,As my mind cries out this is so wrong. I'am your Sister You are my Soul,Now I know life shall never be whole. As I turn to walk away, My heart is to shattered to even pray. I look back at your face I know so well,So this is truly...A TASTE OF PURE HELL!!! Love Ya, Tracy
Your in my Soul / Tracy Shilt-Gordon (Sister) Tony....Your in my heart,Your in my soul.You'll be my breath when I grow old,You are my BROTHER,Your my BESTFRIEND...YOUR IN MY SOUL!!!! No words can express how I Love and Miss You!!!...Tracy
My Fantasy / Tracy Gordon-Shilt (Sister & Soulmate ) Tony...Maybe if I concentrate hard enough, I can go back in time and on the night you left, I can ride down the street with you and and when we get to the turn that leads to the other side...I CAN MAKE YOU STOP BEFORE YOU GO TO FAR!!!!! You are never Forgotten and eternally loved!!! ...Tracy, your sister
The Winds Of Love / Your Family The Gordon's (His Family ) The winds of love blow gently,On a quiet peaceful hill.Where the one we love is resting,His spirit with us still.When I'm sad and lonley and everything goes wrong,I seem to hear you whisper, So I smile and carry on.Each time I see your photo,You seem to smile and say,Don't cry I'm only waiting Till we meet again some day...The years have come and gone,our tears for you linger on.We visit your grave and wander why,One so loved should have to die.With aching hearts and tears unseen,We still wish "Dear God IT WAS ALL A DREAM" ,,,We'll NEVER FORGET YOU!!!! with Love,From your Family
Daddy's Silhouette (This is for my Baby Girl "Cheyanne Nicole Gordon)who owns my heart / Tony Gordon (Myself (through my sister) ) Cheyanne...I've written this letter to, So you simply won't forget, That Daddy loved his little girl,For you are Daddy Silhoutte.Please know that you are loved,For I see you everyday.I share your joys and pains,But I regret I went away.For God has called me home,Now an angel I must be.But what I miss the most in you,is when you cuddled me.To feel your arms around me,was a heaven felt on earth.No single joy could ever replace,That moment of your birth.So when at night your dreaming,and my image you can see.It's not a dream at all my sweet,IT'S YOUR DAD,YOUR ANGEL...IT'S ME.And although our days were few,And the love recieved was had.Your in my heart forever,For I Love You Chey Baby... From Dad
Tributes and Condolences
, Lord pick a bunch for me. Place them in Tony's arms, and tell him they're from me. Tell him I love 
and miss him, and when he turns and smiles. Place a kiss
upon his cheek, and hold him for a while. Remembering him is easy, I do it everyday. But there is an ache,
Within my heart. THAT WILL NEVER GO AWAY!! 
...From Your Sister Tracy
Together forever and never apart maybe in distance...But never in heart!!
and patient smile, With sadness we recall. You had a kindly word for each, And died beloved by all. The voice is mute and stilled the heart. That loved us well and true, Ah, bitter was the the trial to part. From one so good as you. You are not forgotten loved one, Nor will you ever be. As long as life and memory last, We will remember thee. We miss you now, are hearts are sore. As time goes by we miss you more. Your loving smile, Your gentle face... NO ONE CAN FILL YOUR EMPTY PLACE!!!! Forever loved 
...What I would give if I could say,"Hello to my brother Tony" everyday? To hear his voice, To see him smile. To sit with him, and laugh and joke awhile. So if you have a "Tony" cherish him with love and care, 'Cause you'll never know the heartache
Love Ya, Tracy
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